Dear Xanga,

I've been cheating on you with the younger + much more social Facebook.  Sorry for the heartbreak.  I know I'm a whore but if you take me back I promise to come visit more often.  Ok, at least once in awhile.   Deal?

(Not) Much love,

~Lara

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We'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of
this scene, start a brand new colony.
Where everything will change, we'll give
ourselves new names. Identities erased.
The sun will heat the grounds, under our bare
feet in this brand new colony.
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Ah, life.  I stumbled onto this archaic xanga of mine by accident recently.  This was my alter-ego blog where, at that point in my life,  I could rant, swear, blaspheme, hate, love, long, need and know.  All that to say that I needed a place to be real in a point in my life where that's the last thing I felt free to be.  Now I find myself on the other side of that journey & intrigued not only by the path behind me but the one ahead.  Senior year approaching....hm...scary.   I'd love to say i'm terribly much more mature & wise to the world, but alas.  That being said, I find myself craving a clean break with the past.   I archived the old entries from this blog & then deleted them.  Now i'm looking at a nice clean slate.....a clean slate with a Postal Service title.  hm....tempting. 

I really want a place to hold more public discussion & share thoughts that could be read by anyone.  Not lacking candidness of course, but something a bit more mature & practical for whatever the rest of summer, and ultimately senior year, brings.  However, just not sure I can pull this off since my general blogging habits tend to involve lots of ranting about minor issues and pet peeves.   Need to break that habit.  Anyway....shall ponder on this & see what comes of it.  Meantime,  I have a fresh slate.  Feels amazing.  ^_^

~Lara/Laura/that girl/etc